Today we have our first anonymous blog. I’m so happy that she submitted even if she doesn’t want people to know who she is. It’s such a relief to get your fears, struggles, and scars off your chest. I hope that more of you will submit even if you choose to remain anonymous. Little Miss Secrets & Lyrics has a dream that only she knows about. It’s a great story, and I can relate to it in so many ways. I hope this Little Miss chooses to chase her dreams. I feel the same way about being scared and not knowing what will happen next. But sometimes, isn’t that the exciting part of life? Dream big, girl, dream big!
I absolutely love what you have done with the little miss project and I would love to share my story with you, but I can’t find the courage within myself to reveal my secrets, so I thought this would be the perfect way to start.
I’m a twenty year old college student that is double majoring in graphic design and arts technology at Illinois State University in Normal, IL. I absolutely love this major, even though it makes me stressed and tired and overwhelmed quite often. However, as I come to grips with the fact that I will be graduating in another year, I have slowly realized that I’m not sure if I can do this as a profession.
During the summer of 2009, I took summer school down at Illinois State and I was going through a lot of various experiences. I felt really alone and lonely, and I was in that stage where you are trying to forget what happened in high school and who you used to be, and learn to embrace who you are, what you have gone through, and who you are bound to become. I started writing poems, and that slowly turned into me writing songs. I got a guitar for Christmas in 2009, and I’ve been teaching myself ever since, and I have written close to one hundred songs about everything in my life-losing friends, gaining love, getting lost in life, finding out who you are, and the list goes on. I’ve never told a single soul that this is what I long to do. I’m so afraid that people will think that it’s a joke, that it’s simply unattainable and at twenty years old, I should start thinking about what I need to do, not what I want to do. This fear paralyzes me, and I’m too afraid to let anyone in on the secret of what I long to do. I feel like songwriting is really meant for me. It just clicks. I enjoy, I love it, and I will do anything to continue to do it. When I picture my future, I see myself doing this, not designing. I’m afraid that I will never attain this goal. That I will keep this secret for the rest of my life, and wonder what could have been. I’m scared.
The song Little Miss has slowly started to open my eyes and has made me realize that dreams are worth chasing, and even though I haven’t let anyone in on this secret, I dream of graduating from college and moving to Nashville to make this dream come true. What Kristian and Jennifer do is make people realize that they can do anything. Their music gives me a song to dance to, and a song to cry to, and I can never say enough about them. They are by far my favorite musicians and artists in the world, and their music touches your soul so deeply that it simply lifts you up from the lowest of lows and brings you to new heights. Your project has done the same. It has made me realize that I am not alone. I feel as though I am friends with these people that are posting videos. I feel such a strong connection to them. Thank you for all of your hard work.
I hope this projects turns into everything it can be, and should be. Thanks for letting others participate. I really appreciate what this has done for me.
Welcome to my secret.
Secrets and Lyrics